elmerglued

Another blog. Actually, I already have been writing in my Friendster account. However, I feel like I cannot be all honest and open with my thoughts there simply because not all people there are my friends, so to speak. I just want a different place (or site) to write down my thoughts without the automatic hey-I-have-a-new-entry shouting in other people’s email in-box. Hence, this live journal account.

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I’ve been sick for two days. This morning was like hell. It felt like a hand drill was digging through my head. I couldn’t get up. Eating was also tough. I couldn’t taste food and my throat was swollen. It really must be the past few days that I haven’t been sleeping enough to finish all my grades and the manuscripts of my students. I actually had a good plan for the Holy Week break. I was planning to work on my proposal after finishing all my “teacher work.” But since I got sick, my plans went down the drain. I haven’t even opened my laptop to check on my thesis files. Hopefully, tomorrow I could start working on it. I’ve got to do something tomorrow.

Speaking of getting busy, I’ve got to fix my grad papers on Monday, especially the validation exam. I am hoping and praying that they (my former teachers) would all give me anything but an exam. I’d rather write a lot of papers, of course, than study again for all those subjects. Or better yet, I hope they’d just smile and agree to give me a passing mark provided that I don’t show my face again. That would be the best situation.

Honestly, this master’s degree wasn’t part of my plans. Sure, I did want to pursue higher studies but not here in Los Baños. I was supposed to enroll at the College of Mass Communication (CMC) in UP Diliman and take up MA Journalism when the teaching opportunity at devcom came. I was so psyched to leave LB at that time. I was so happy already when I passed the interview and the secretary at CMC gave me a preliminary form 5A only to be advised by my superiors at OPAA that it’s not practical to study in Diliman. That was in 2001.

Hello 2007 and I still haven’t even finished my proposal! So many batches of graduate students have finished their MS ahead of me. Well, I haven’t been studying full-time ever since, hence, the deeelay. If I could just turn back time and think it through, I wouldn’t have accepted the teaching offer. I wasn’t “ready” yet anyway.

Have I turned it down, I would have gone full-time. I believe one has to have the time to relish studying, talking to other students and teachers, writing papers, and preparing for exams without thinking of any work or orders from the boss. Studying alone entails multitasking.

Enough of regrets. What I intend to do (I really do. MARK MY WORD!) is to finish my masters this summer. I will be practicing a hermit lifestyle starting this week to finish my long-due degree. My plans actually depend on it. So, I better get down to business.

Wish me luck!