Trying to discern which exactly went into my luggage before leaving for Shanghai:
Shattered ideals or detour to betterment?
(It can also be that shattering was necessary for my own good.)
Just a phase or an indelible feeling?
(A phase that lingered a little too long perhaps.)
Consistently serious or occasionally fun?
(I am fun but still a little serious for some audiences.)
Finding the right one or enjoying the wrong ones?
(Unless proven otherwise, but not for me to prove.)
Service or self-satisfaction?
(Should be both, I believe.)
My excuse for not being able to write so soon? I was busy being “in the moment.” Haha. It’s been a series of ups and downs for me in the past few weeks. However, lately, I’ve resolved to always see the positive in anything seemingly upsetting. I think I’ve wasted a good deal of time dwelling so much on things that are beyond my control and being too harsh on myself almost always. I’m not making a big pronouncement here that I’m miraculously cured of negative thoughts and gloomy days, but I’m trying my best not to give them power over me. Happiness and contentment are choices that I’ve taken for granted far too long. So, here’s to taking an active part in my bliss and (bright) future.
I.OWE.ME.BIG.TIME.
