elmerglued

I haven’t been blogging. But now I am.

Online social networks eat most of my time; checking what’s happening with other peoples’ lives that I tend to forget and reflect on my own. I hardy write here anymore. But come to think of it, I do have a lot to write about. But I’d rather keep most of them private.

Things are looking better now. Some people may think I’ve wasted time, but I did need a bit of down time to sort things out. I’ve been through major adjustments these past few months. Those times were tough, but I’ve waded through and I’ve come up with a plan. In hindsight, it was harder to go through my daily routine without showing anyone a hint that I was about to crack any time. But I guess I have mastered the art of cover up and elusiveness to shy people away from the mess I was sorting through every single day. Thank God for good friends too as I wouldn’t have survived without them.

Perhaps, anyone who is about to turn thirty does go through phases of backtracking — have I done right? am I where I am supposed to be? — and projecting — what do I do next? what will become of me?

Finding answers to these questions (I actually have more!) can be draining and exhilarating at the same time. I did have a lot of misses. However, I would like to give my self some credit for things I’ve done right. And I do believe I’ve made more good choices than bad ones. Haha.

Now, factoring all the hits and misses has lead me to clearly know what I want out of work, relationships, and life in general. Here’s a summary

I want to earn more to serve more. (Family, friends, and community)

I want the real deal. (No more one-way and no more suckers, please.)

I want to do what I do best. (To do my life-long passions. I may be too old when I’m forty.)

Thirty, here I come!